It's reached the point where I just don't have it in me to go over the crap going on with my family again. I fluctuate from disgusted to weepy to frozen inside in no time at all. I've been spending a lot of time with friends, haven't been staying at the apartment much. I wouldn't say that I'm not enjoying my holiday, though. The break, the chance to heal somewhat, is a good thing and there's a lot of positive energy and love around me.
I'm still here and I wish everyone a beautiful holiday, however you choose to celebrate it.